2015 YA@UN and 2015 TCCA Leadership Conference in Houston Reflection - Catherine

As I try to wrap up my thoughts on what has happened in the past two weeks, what comes to mind is that around this time of each year, everything is bittersweet. It’s the time when I get to see my friends from across the country, and it’s also a time when I make new friends.The first day is always “Hello—it’s nice to meet you,” and the last day is always “Goodbye—we’ll meet again.” When you go back home after spending two weeks with your friends constantly by your side, you feel like there is an empty space inside you that longs to be filled again. Although the feeling is bittersweet, the sad feelings are overcome with the knowledge that we will meet again, and that these friendships will last even with the distance that separates us.

I’m grateful that this year I had the opportunity to go back to the Youth Assembly at the UN as a delegate for Tzu Chi. Last year was my first time going to the YA@UN, and to be honest I don’t remember a lot of what happened during the actual YA@UN, but instead I remember the Tzu Ching and Tzu Shao that I had met through our own pre-camp. The feeling I had being part of this close-knit group was what brought me back to YA@UN this year. It was also what convinced me to take on the responsibility of being an overall team leader for our delegate team.

生命力 The Power of Life!!

I don’t consider myself to be a very outgoing person, so when I was asked if I’d like to be an overall team lead, I was a bit hesitant. I’m also someone who tends to have a lot of 煩惱 (afflictions). But surprisingly, that hesitation and worry existed for a small moment, and I made the quick decision to go for it. I was still a bit unconfident, but that feeling was a given because it was the first time that I ad to handle such a responsibility. From the moment I made my decision, I knew that there would be no regrets. Throughout the camp, I was mentally not very stressed, but I knew physically my body was very tense. It was especially noticeable whenever someone massaged my shoulders. I even kind of caught a cold that would last for a few days, probably because of the lack of sleep. Yet, I didn’t mind any of this at all—because the people around me were a support that made my worries and stress go away. Even when we received so many curveballs throughout the week, as a team we were able to catch them humbly and move forward.

Group 13!

A few days after the YA@UN, I headed to Houston for the 2015 TCCA Leadership Conference, where it would be my second time as small group leader. It was so exciting meeting my friends from previous conferences, and I was also looking forward to getting to know the people I have never met before. The workshops and classes during the conference were really fun and interesting, and I learned a lot from them. When you transform your mind and change your way of thinking, your actions can really create change not only within yourself, but also within others.

I really enjoyed the evening program we had this year—it really gave me an opportunity to see what other chapters were doing, and it was a relaxing break from a long day of classes. It was also a great time to take lots of pictures with everyone! Singing and doing the sign language with everyone for "So I Stand Up" at the end of the evening was very touching as well.

At the closing ceremony, I was once again very moved by the sign language that was performed. SGs and SBs were so cute when performing "陽光眷戀的地方 The Place Where the Sunshine Loves." I am always moved by the lyrics:

“讓我們像一家人一樣, 來分享感動化解迷惘. Let us be like one family. We can share our touching stories and end all of our doubts.
用最溫柔的目光 ,看彼此成長. Using the most gentle gazes we can watch each other grow.
張開臂膀打開門窗 讓愛照在心上. Spread out your arms, open the doors and windows—let love shine on your heart.”

Throughout the closing ceremony, a few of us were sitting in the back, somewhat separated from the others because our rides to the airport were departing during the closing ceremony. What was touching was the moment when everyone in front of us turned around to wave goodbye. At that moment, I really didn’t want to leave everyone, but leaving was something that was inevitable. We all have to go back home, back to work,back to school. I have learned so much from my fellow Tzu Ching and Tzu Shao, Tzu Ching Alumni, and SGs and SBs. I have been so inspired by everyone’s dedication and motivation. Spending my last two weeks of summer break with Tzu Chi is something that I will always look forward to doing, and I hope that in the future I can continue to attend TCCA conferences and see my big Tzu Chi family again.

Gratefully,
Catherine Lee